my 2 minutes break

I thought this was funny.. I caught one of the blue Curtin library staff guys (the geeky asian one) checking his facebook when he was doing his rounds. He just couldn't resist when he found a free computer. Lol.







I feel so lost without my phone and I get weird thoughts popping into my head like I might get assaulted or something and I wouldn't be able to call anyone...







I feel like I'm in Chinatown.. This guy and girl across the partition are talking so loudly and really really fast in viet/thai/canto... they all sound the same to me.

Awesomely brilliant idea!

I have a brilliant beyond brilliant idea that I shouldn't even be thinking about cos that means I won't be able to concentrate on anything else like my studies and that is really really bad considering my exams start in 36 1/2 hours but I can't help it cos it's just so brilliant that the imaginary lightbulb above my head keeps flicking on every few seconds and I so want to tell someone people about it but I know I shouldn't because then we won't stop talking about it, which will make things worse cos then I will be jumping up and down with excitement in my seat in the exam hall in anticipation of the minute I start 3 months of brain inactivity, which is also the moment I've been waiting for since the start of the year, just so I can share my brilliant beyond brilliant idea! EEKS!

The clockworks in my head

1. It's the last week of uni and I'm still staring at my to-do list for Week 1 on my 'Bulletin Bored'. I realise I haven't completed a single week's worth of readings till now.

2. When will Kenny be out of the shower? I stink from cooking.

3. Should I even bother applying for the next round of Honours? My recent grades aren't exactly something to be proud of and the thought of having to write out an application on your goals and contribution to the research team just puts me off. I like the idea of graduating with Honours but... research? Ulgh.

4. Why are guys so dense? And why do they always use 'Well, I kinda maybe like you' instead of admitting it straight. So much less complicated don't you think? I seriously hope not all guys are wired that way.

5. I could really use a Gloria Jean's White Chocolate Mocha topped with whipped cream, caramel and sprinkled with chocolatey goodness right about now.

6. How do you write a CV??

7. That choreographer on stage last Sunday was hot.

8. Should I go for Errol Cock's lecture tomorrow? I'll feel bad for the old man if I don't go because an average of 15 people show up every week. But I get zilch from it when I go anyway. Tough choice...

9. I'm suppose to look for Ange's sweater... and her other... stuff.

10. I'm loving sister Chelle Tran's love heart up on 'Bulletin Bored'. It makes me feel loved.

11. It's Audrey's birthday! Happy Birthday Drey! We've been the best of friends since childhood. When we were little, we used to have regular sleepovers (me at hers, because I had boysss (and we girls say 'eew' to boys my brothers) in my house), shopping sprees (with the mum of course), little late night girly chats, clothes swap, dolling up, and all the things little girls do. She was like the sister my brothers never were. Even though we both kind of grew up apart since she moved to US, she's still my best friend and I love her to bits.

12. I need to clean my room...again. World War XXIV broke out at Room 3, 120 Leach Highway.

13. Drey and I should have a huge celebration to replace all the birthdays we've spent apart! Gahh, I really miss that girl.

14. Should I really bother with you? Cos it's taking up a lot of space in my mind and I really don't see how it's beneficial.

15. I should really memorise my speech for tomorrow! I almost forgot about it. Oh yea, meet Jas for lunch and finish off those splints.

16. Gosh, my splints are U-G-L-Y! For 2 marks each, I'll probably end up with a total of 1.5. Recap- Jon NG: Gosh, what's that ugly thing?! ... -.-"'

17. I really need to relight that fire for God and I really need to be equipped with the Word. I should've known how to answer that Jewish girl when she asked 'If God is Jesus and the Holy Spirit, and Jesus is God's son, how can he be all 3 at once?' ... All of us should've known how to answer that.

18. I miss my mummy dearest and daddy dearest.

19. I should shower now. If Flipper was alive and had a functional nose, he would say "You Schtink!" Sorry, Flipper.

20. Goodness, I'm treating words like 'functional' as layman terms now. Too much OT. Too much.

21. Ahh I did it again! I used 'layman'. I would never have used functional and layman in my daily use of words before I came into OT... I have to admit, the words ADL (Activities of Daily Living, for the uninitiated), crossed my mind when I was trying to explain the last sentence. I could really use that end of the year holidays now.

22. I found Ange's sweater... and her other... stuff.

23. Wow, I went this far and didn't think of Facebook once.. D-oh!

24. Suddenly, I really really miss you guys..
Carolllll- Quit watching your anime and go study girl. Can't believe you'll be back home even before i finish my paper. Haha. Thanks for making me feel a little part of home everytime I talk to you even though, in your blurness, I bet you wouldn't notice.

Mr. Ng- Thanks, again :) I hope you're ok. You know I'm here if you ever need to talk, right? I'm holding on to your 'make everyone cook' party (If you follow through with your take away plans, I'll personally kick you out! hahah). Oh yea, and I'm still not over you having a laksa party in my absence. Bahh

Sexyrena- Somehow, you know just the right time to lift up my spirit whenever I'm down. I know God's doing amazing things in your life and I'm still in awe at how much you've grown ever since you came to know Him. I'm very very proud of you, sexy :) hehe

Mama Papaya- I didn't even know you moved to UK and that you're my faithful reader! Lol. But yea, I wish you were in KL. So much easier to hang with you. I won't just crash at your place this time :P hahah. We should explore more redundant sites together like waitless.org lol (which, apparently, isn't there anymore :S). All the best in UK, my red faced friend!

25. Time to do some work!

It's 3am and I can't sleep.. Maybe it's because I've slept for a total of 11 hours today.. well, technically yesterday. Or maybe it's because I've got a million things going on in my head which I can't seem to get rid of. 

Ahh whatever it is, I need sleep. I want to sleep..



On a side note...

Thank you for calling even though you're so far away just to make sure I was okay.. It means a lot. I miss hanging with you. Can't wait to see you soon :)

Am I doing the right thing?
Did I do the right thing?
Am I a horrible person?
It's for the best, right?
What is wrong with me?
Why do I feel so small?
What is going on?

ohh

crap.

masked

A word was released to me tonight at Elevate out of fear but out of obedience to God. And, somehow, although I didn't say it, I am grateful to the person for releasing it to me. Because, it wasn't just another word. It was the truth. I thought I was able to get away with it without anyone ever knowing. But that wasn't in accordance with God's plan. I guess He figured using one of his messengers to expose the real me would make me realise that it's about time i stop leading a double life. 

cloudingMYthoughts

Have you ever felt like you're sometimes being used by someone when somebody else fails them? Then when you realise it, there's nothing you can do about it. When it happens again, you feel sorry for the person and meet their needs but the second that someone of more importance to them comes around, you're no longer needed and it's being rubbed in your face. And you wonder why you allow it to happen and as much as you wish it could get it out of your head, the word 'friend' keeps popping up... and then you realise that all you can do is leave it to God.

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Have you ever had a conversation with someone for just a brief moment but for the next few days you find that you can't seem to get the person out of your head? As pure as your intentions might be, you find yourself waiting on the edge of your seat to see if he or she is the next person to pop up on your msn list. You eagerly reply the person's message. You wonder why the person's taking a minute longer than usual to reply you. You find yourself smiling from ear to ear when you're talking to the person and wonder if you're being very silly to do that. And you just can't wait to see him or her again just to have a good laugh...

5 hours to breathe

I can finally stop and take a breath .... for 5 hours. Handing in 3 major assignments in one week is not funny. This is just a very brief update from my very hectic schedule. Blogging from uni lol while waiting for Jas and Ange. We're heading to UWA's springfeast with Jem. I'm expecting lots of good food :)

Ange just called. That's my cue to go.

Cheerios!




Oh.. Why 5? Because in 5 hours, I have to start on a new assignment. DON'T take OT.

in need of play

One of the worse things about having to do endless assignments is that when everyone else is playing, you're stuck working on useless interventions for your patient.

:( I want to play cluedo (on dvd!!) with the rest of them too...

heck, I'll even take soccer on ps3 or boring old Scotland Yard.


lol Hi Jeremy! Hi Drew! You guys are sitting next to me trying to see what I'm typing. No, Jeremy, I'm not writing you a love letter. But Thank You guys for doing some major editing on my assignment!



oh, I'll post about camp when i'm free. Camp was Awesome! 

everyday like today!

I love the weather today!

I wore shorts to uni. which made me very happy. and I didn't have to wear a jacket. which also made me very happy.

:)

sometimes, I think it takes very little to make me happy. but also very little to make me mad. try and shoot for the first one though

:)

'why is it that everytime something or someone good comes along, you have to find a way to push it away? why do you have to pick an argument over something so trivial that would cause a rift? why is it so easy for you to trust strangers but a lifetime to trust someone you love? why can't you accept that people do stay? why are you fighting off something that makes you happy?



what are you afraid of?'

- Conscience

small. big.

little. mini. tiny. vertically challenged. short. petite.

different words. same meaning.

my small size and stature has been brought up a lot this week.

From realising during our practice for phys rehab prac exam that adjusting the chair leg to the shortest possible length wasn't even enough to accomodate for someone of my height, to being prayed over to do 'dynamic things even in this small frame', getting comments like 'hey. u look taller today! oh wait, u'r wearing heels', to being casted as David in the David and Goliath skit because i was the smallest, to being called mini mouse, and not forgetting being called a small girl. 

i have absolutely no doubt that all those were said out of love and in the name of good fun. but u know how they say, too much of something can be detrimental to ur health. i guess in some ways, i do feel small after that. no, scratch that. i feel very very small. inside.

but i learnt something. u know how u know that u know something but u just need to say it out to someone before u realise that u knew it all along? might be a bit confusing, but yea. i had one of those moments today.

I was one of the teachers in children's church today and we were teaching the kids the story of David and Goliath. My object lesson was to teach the kids that no matter how small they may be, God can use them in many different ways, just as he used David to beat Goliath. I knew that. I know I knew that. But something about actually teaching it to the kids made me realise that hey, i may be small but size isn't the most important thing. As long as I have God to keep my head up high, I can do anything through Him. My God is big, and because I have Him in me, I am big too.

so yea, i may be small. but i'm big.

everything. will be. okay.

I'm hanging on another day

Just to see what, You will throw my way



And I'm hanging on, to the words You say

You said that I will, will be okay

Double whammy!

Taking a rather disturbing break from my assignment.

I feel the need to vent.

First I found out I forgot to save all the work i did for my assignment last night.

AND THEN...

Malaysian Dreamgirl turned into Malaysian Dreambeach!!!!!!

http://www.facebook.com/topic.php?uid=21384838048&topic=4694

arghhhhhhhhh complete waste of my life watching it.

Pays to be the only daughter with a rich dad. Probably thought all the sms money would be compensated for when the daughter wins......, which is rather true.

(repeats to self: "Love your neighbours as yourself. Love your neighbours as yourself...")

Darn. how I wish I didn't have a conscience right now.

Sorry if I've been having moodswings or snapping at anyone lately.
he didn't even look at her
aunt came for her monthly visit.
for more than 3 seconds
it's been a pain and it's sickening.
that hurt.

for one fleeting moment, hopes that things would stay somewhat, the same, skyrocketed. And just like that, it plummeted all the way down. this time, below where it started from.

it's time's like these that I realise.. things would be alright. cos I've got these two here with me

Moments relived

Today felt like 2007. 

I'm glad.

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I know 2008 is suppose to be a time for new beginnings but ever since i got back i can't help but wish that part of 2007 would remain unchanged. things have changed, some for the better .. but some i suppose would have been even better still if it stayed the same. if you know what i'm talking about, most would probably disagree. but hey, this is just my personal view. i was talking to someone the other day about being too tied down with assignments and being cut off on quite a bit especially now that circumstances have changed, but it was just a positive encouragement to hear him say "u'r not cut off...not even that close". no doubt 2008 has brought a lot of awesome things and great people but yea, just hoping part of 2007 still remains...



hoping to relive snippets from that perfect afternoon once again.

no surprises?

he said.
she smiled.
he stopped.
be prepared.
she thought.